“Power”
I honestly sit here, I find myself breathing, taking moments to just acknowledge my greatness.
From the woman that used to sit and look at herself in the mirror, stare into my own brown eyes and just ask myself how can this life be real, how could that disaster be my life. I sit here now so present in my own body, so much peace throughout my soul. Some would say I woke up one day and blew up my life, to others I finally chose myself, my joy.
It feels like one day I finally woke up. I looked at my life and said "no" I don’t choose this anymore. I woke up my consciousness, my soul.
And now I sit here, breathing in faith and exhaling peace. I look at how powerful I am, I'm actively rewriting my life, the life I previously thought I was stuck in forever. In this process I am discovering more and more of my gifts. Let's take a moment to appreciate my manifestation and my discernment. What are the odds that him … the man I swear got away, is now mine. Sometimes he looks at me and says " Imagine telling little 14 year old you to just wait and I would be yours" My counter to that is "Imagine telling little 17 year old you, that girl is going to give you everything you’ve ever wanted one day" I never doubted my power… I always get what is meant for me. I just knew it then and now you know it now my love.
Let's take a moment to say thank you to the universe, God. What a sense of humor that being has, none the less, thank you. Thank you for this happiness, this joy. So many things on a daily basis that just reaffirm I'm finally on the path I'm supposed to be. The craziest part is I can't see the finish line I used to in my old life and I’m learning to accept that my life doesn’t have to be all planned out. I honestly have no idea what's going to be in store with this man, but I'm here for it. I think the fact that me the anxious perfectionist just being able to sit here and appreciate this and not try to plan my life just speaks to the growth and healing that’s happening within. Let's take one more moment to also acknowledge how grateful I am to my own soul, I'm so in love with her. She stops to dance, she takes time for her creative space, she swings on the swing, she reflects and journals, she allows herself to exist and she prays whoever is not supposed to be there to please evict themselves from her life. She's so in love with herself she doesn’t care who stays. Damn that’s power.